Emotional regulation is a characteristic
absent in a borderline's cognitive operation.
Stability isn't a known function or concept.
Explosive, reactive, impulsive, depressive,
insecurity masked as narcissism,
comes in waves crashing every few seconds.
The outside world seemingly astonished
by the sheer self-destructive derangement.
Manifested as a result of abandonment,
times described as traumatic
and overwhelming dramaticism.
Living like this is painful,
constantly dishevelled by the consequences
of our own actions,
that would not have been committed,
if our brain knew how to regulate emotions.
It's just a constant cycle of
anxiety ridden compulsion
and suicidal ideation.
Battling the fact of knowing that
healing is an almost impossible conclusion.
