This book contains Pamela's personal story of the deepest crisis she ever experienced in her life. Successful as a writer and spiritual therapist, she was confronted first with illness, then with insomnia and fear, and ultimately with depression and psychosis. She had to be hospitalized and undergo psychiatric treatment. Pamela openly describes what she went through and also seeks to come to terms with what happened to her from a spiritual perspective. What do depression and psychosis mean from the perspective of the soul? How do they arise and can they bear fruit? What is the role of psychiatry in a dark night of the soul? The second part of the book contains a series of channeled messages about the meaning of severe crises in our lives, the need to face our own darkness, and the unfailing presence of love and compassion in our lives.